When I was a young mom like many of you...I was so zealous for the Lord...I wanted to be used of God..And I had thoughts of wanting to be a missionary to China...or to some far off land...But I had such a horrible marriage I didn't have time to think of going anywhere..let alone out of the country.
It soon became very apparent that my mission would be to my marriage and to my child...My marriage was so impossible..Jim would leave and not tell me he was going. . And he would be gone for months..I hardly ever knew where he was..My life and home was a mess..And yet I knew some how that God had called me to be a teacher to women.
There was not much teaching on the home or in the churches at this time..This was in the early 1970's..I remember begging God to let me get a divorce..I told the Lord that Jim would never straighten up and that I needed to be free of him to do the Lord's work..The Lord and I went around and around on that one. . I would read the Word of God on marriage and divorce..It said that if the unbeliever would leave, let him go. . be at peace..Well Jim was an unbeliever but Jim never stayed gone. . he always came back.
Sometimes I didn't know what to do with him, so I would pray him home.Then he would be home a while and leave again. . He said to me once. . "You don't know what you want and I feel like a Yo-yo.." Well he was right about that..But my calling from God seemed to keep me... I wanted to do right before the Lord..I knew that if i wasn't faithful to God in my marriage...how would God ever use me for His glory in any calling?
I just felt I had to get this marriage figured out..if it took all of my life to do it..Well it did take 12 years..but it was worth the wait...The Lord taught me many things during this time..He taught me how to cook and bake. Later some good books came out about Marriage and I read every one of the books I could.
God kept me in the hallow of His hands..He protected me until I could understand how to be a good wife.. And how to raise a family for the Lord..Mostly He taught me to submit to my husband..Thank the Lord..!! The teachings on marriage are the key teachings to about any ministry there is..Love connie