Part 1 - "To Stay at Home is Best"
Good Morning Ladies ..It isnt that i want to take you ladies away from your home duties,,But some of the ladies need some personal ministering ,,in order to get back to their homemaking,,So many mothers and wives are so wounded and broken,,i am a widow now and i have a lil more time to counsel then others do,,,My carpenter Andy just called and he and Sabrina are coming this afternoon to give me some estimates on some new windows and doors ,,i need to get them put in before the sideing,,i do have different work to do as an older mother now,,But my work is still at home..It will always be at home ,,Home is where my heart is,,i wrote a quote yesterday from Longfellow it is this,,"Stay..stay at home my heart and rest...Home keeping hearts are happiest..For those who wander,,they know not where ..are full of trouble and full of care..TO STAY AT HOME IS BEST"..i was also thinking of this other quote ..i cant remember it exactly..But the thot was ,,A true teacher isnt happy to teach the same things over and over again ,,But she is happiest when she sees her students teaching what she taught them..There is more to that but i dont remember it,,Yesterday i was looking up that one web sight of Mary Jane Butters,,Well there were some lovely mothers and their homes on there,,i so secretly wish i was like so many of these mothers..But often i am a silly girl,,i dont know if i can ever accept myself as i am,,i mean i am 62..when will i grow up? Well i if i ever do grow up i want to be Mary Jane Butters,,or Beatrix Potter,,or Tasha Tudor,,They had such good imaginations,,i think life just gets ahead of me and i get so overwhelmed and i have to laugh,,i wish i had all my flowers in matching pots but i dont,,i have been busy sitting in the weeds reading books on medicinal herbs,,God knows i never had any money to go to a real Dr..i dont know,,i wish my life had been more organised,,My mother is yelling outta Heaven "AAAAAA-men..And Aunt Toot wants to say as she wipes her tear filled eyes,,"You dont know the half of it,",But folks love to come here,,prolly to laugh,,Thats why Miss Charlotte comes over ,,just to laugh,,Ya know when i went and picked up Mary and Brad from that drug house for the last time and brot them here ,,Oh we were all sooo depressed ,,all 3 of us,,We cud hardly speak,,And as i sat there wandering what to do next,,i said to Brad,,"Make us Laugh Brad,,just make us laugh"..Brad got a twinkle in his eye and said something,,i dont remember what it was,,But it atleast cracked a smile on mine and Marys face,,And from then on Brad kept us laughing pretty much ..Well not all of the time,,but alot of it,,And forgive me but i have to laugh when the knot it my life is the tightest,,Its how i get out of it,,and oh yeah i wanna be perfect and all but well....i aint.!!! And why God ask me to write at all i will never know for sure..
Part 2 - "The Hultquist Home"
Yesterday my carpenters came to talk with me about the next project..I ask
Andy how he was gona manage my ceiling fan on a slanted porch roof? I said
"How will we get the front door open.."? He is a wonderful craftsman and
Sabrina is too,,..i had insulted him,,,He says "Well this isnt Sanfords and
Sons,,If the front door wont open because of the fan i wont put the fan
up,"..Then he says "Trust me you will be able to get in and out the front
door"..Anyway i think i will get a fan that fits right on the ceiling..i
think it is called a hugger fan,,? Everyone that sees my porch says "Andy is
a wonderful craftsman," Miss Charolette came by last nite to sit on the
porch and laugh..Miss Charlottes husband has been out of work for about 4
months i think,,We were all praying for Jay to get this one job..And
yesterday he found out he didnt get it,,He was heart sick,,He is a
wonderrful Christian gentleman,,How sorrowful i feel for him..But Miss
Charolotte says that laughter is the highest form of faith,,and it is,,She
was raised in a good home ,,her dad was a lawyer,,But Char said "Papa never
worried over money and i dont either"..i remember the summer before Jim died
the following Spring,,Jim got so upset he took everything we had worth
sellin and put it in the yard,,I was embarrassed as Miss Charlotte and i sat
in the shade of the neighbors tree drank iced tea and watched Jim..Miss C.
knew we were in dire straights and needed money,,Miss C. said "Connie i find
you interesting whether you are poor or rich..it doesnt make any
difference,"..Well i was glad i was interesting because i was embarrassed to
a nub,,and i wasnt laughing,i am laughing now ,,Jim wud get so desperate at
times,,One of the things he worried most about was his house falling in,,He
used to tell me,,"Connie if we ever moved this house wud be condemned"..Aunt
Toot cried when she saw the porch and the new doors etc,,"Connie ,,Jim wud
be so happy to see this"..And i know he looks down from Heaven and sees this
house,,and i know he is happy with it,i know i drove JIm crazy at times with
my faith,,But i think every now and again he laughed ..And i know he is
laughing now in Heaven,,love Connie