Why Me Lord - Faith to Start Again

{From the archives of Connie's letters, October, 2014}

Part 1 (Start Again)

Dear Mothers, Ya know in my early days of walking by faith ...it was hard..ya know ?and a i cud never try to keep the old faith i already had....and add to it..No the Lord wud have me to start again..Ya know when Jim got more time in prison ..i got it too....It was hard to look at the fact that i had already waited 6 yrs and he still wasnt healed ..and now the judge adds another 10 yr sentence..Here i was pregnant ..sitting with Jill listening to the judge announce another 10 yrs..Jill was with me ..i bowed down as if i was to faint..and Jill says "connie ..no dont give up"..Thanks Jill...yes i wud have given up..I wud go home and cry out to God and my regular chant was..."Lord all of the real criminals never get caught" i wud try to announce to God that surely this was all so unfair.."why God why"...The heartache and pain nearly split me in half..and finally i wud pray and ask God to heal our family..God never said to me " Make something out of your old faith..No..He wud say "Connie start again.." It seems that when we are new believers we open our hearts completely to God..We ask for something and we wholly receive it..But as we go on as a believer we open up a smaller part of ourselves to Him..We some how dont trust Him ..We cry out to God.."Father it has been so long..How much longer Lord"..And folks tell us to trust in Him..We think that God has hurt us ..how can we trust in Him? How can we trust in God ... we have only seen heartache ?

Part 2  (Why Me, Lord?)

Of course Jim got a lesser sentence because of good behavior..But still it was extra time..I felt that yrs was taken off my life.. that my 20s were stolen from me...And the believers were out havin a good time...Not seemingly paying for their sins..prospering as they went..!!! And here i was praying and crying and winning souls for Christ..The Lord knew my heart..He knew i hadnt seen any blessings yet..Only heartache..He understood that..So when Jill drove me down to get Jim for the last time i was hysterical with fear that this was not going to work out..i never told Jill i was so fearful. And the Lord spoke to me..."Connie what if this is the time for your miracle to come... The Lord said "What if The Word of God is true "? What if the miracles are true and really available as I have told you? "..i think i just trusted in Him one more time.. Bells and whistles didnt go off when i told God i wud trust Him again and start over again,,,No...but God knew ..the beginning from the end..and God gave me 25 yrs of Joy with Jim ..i was only 32 when Jim got healed and i got to have 3 more children,,,Blessed are those who believe but have not seen,,,i was so blessed for not giving up ..He is a rewarder to those who trust in him......love connie

 

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Just Being a Housewife

{From the archives of Connie's letters, Nov, 2013}

Well i have put a few things away .Starting slowly to get back into my regular schedule..My family did the dishes before they all headed out for home..i used paper plates..and my best silverware that is gold.. i told my guests that i was using my best gold ware because i was using paper plates and it wud all balance out..i dont know where the logic is there ..but ...well ..it didnt take long to wash the dishes..well for the rest of this evening i want to make some notes for next few days..and next week..I love to get all of my cook books out and decide things to make..i have a quilt that needs to be repaired..i am looking forward to doing some hand sewing..in the evenings..I heard a story about an old woman who was almost 100 yrs old who was making biscuits at her table just an hour before she died..love connie

 

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Home Library for the Old Time Housewife

{From the archives of Connie's letters, June, 2011}

And ya know i always thot that there wud be enuf food to go around in our
country if push came to shove..But now i dont think so..Seems like things
have gotten so bad lately,,,Alot of the problem is a moral one,,Of course to
me these days we live in now are days to attain knowledge..The Garage Sales
are such a big help..The Bible says that the unbeliever lays up treasures
for the just..That is surely true concerning G,Sales..I used to get all of
my canning supplies at G.sales..And ya know growing your own herbs is not
hard,,Or having a garden of vegetables,,Try to start out with a small
garden,,But think of the Mothers who literally won the battle of hunger in
her kitchen and garden during the Depression Era..These mothers had very
little but they kept their families safe and happy..You can bet your last
bag of potatoes that the mothers didnt run out the door to get a divorce
over what women do now days,,Even a disrupted family is better then getting
a divorce,,Esp in this age..You need your husbands,,But ya know if you can
find good books on Home Remedies and other back to the Land books ,,its good
to buy them right now..Its a good thing to start your own home library,,I
mean yes you cud go to the Public library but to have your own books to
refer to is more handy..And books are cheap at G.Sales.The Pioneer Mothers
had Health books in their cabins to refer to..And some had big Dictionaries
too..And a Family Bible.And the Mothers taught the children to read out of
the Bible..A good book on from scratch cooking is good to own too..Love
connie

 

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